You, Me and God

There is a trinity knot that sits on my upper back.
Nothing fancy, minimal shading.
Even though I can't see it,
it is to remind me.

John 3:16, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life."

I have to believe.
If I don't, then I have to live knowing I let my baby die and go into the ground.
Cold and alone.
And if I believe that there is a god who loves us so,
he loves my baby.

So with my firm belief,
I gave her back for him to keep her safe.
He gave us his child.
I gave him mine.

The knot doesn't represent The Father, The Son and The Holy Ghost.
It symbolizes a pact.
As long as I have faith,
she is in heaven and not in the ground.
I promise to believe.
Not for my soul, but for hers.

"This is it little girl. All we have is you, me and God. He's gonna give you a new heart in heaven because Momma believes. I promise..."

And I haven't broke my promise yet. I never will.